If I have to be honest, my heart is not in my work. However, I WILL do it as if I am doing it for the Lord. I learned that lesson already. I am blessed to be working and with the folks that I work with. Thanks be to God.
But I wonder. I wonder if I missed that turn back last fall on the seminary/pastor J thing. Did I blow it? Was I disobedient?
These types of thoughts and questions certainly feel like the devil, and God doesnt bring confusion at all.
Yet I ask, am I continuing down the path that He wants? Certainly, God is in control at all times. I ask to give up my rights to myself daily. Am I giving up my agenda for His? Am I going through the refining years that lead me to my heart’s desire – and His?
Lord, please let me know. I really just want to do Your will. I know that You have far better plans for me than I could ever imagine. I want Your very best for me.
Please help me understand. Give me revelation along this line, Father.
Thank You, Jesus!