The last two days have been very hard. I have to find work. I am giving up on the career thing since I have no clue as to what I should do. I dont even know where to do it. My mom and I had a chat last night. I know that it was from God. She says to just get the work. I had hung up with Brandon a little while earlier, and he said the same thing. I must listen. Mom also said that she feels north of where we are is the place to look. I had felt a desire to be north too, but Laura resists that. I am not sure what to think on that. I dont even know what to do. But, I have to work.
I just dont know what to do. Mom also said that she feels that I dont listen in my interviews. So, this blows me away. I imagine that she is speaking prophetically. I dont get what it means. What am I missing.
I feel that God is trying to say something to me, but I am not hearing it. Please, Lord, help! I want to do my part. What road do I travel down? I dont even know where to begin.
This sucks. I am highly discouraged. Yet, I trust in God and hope in Him. I praise Him for His goodness. I cannot see beyond my situation. That is not good at all. I need my Helper!