Email to Rich, Teri and Grant:
Hey there,
I know that each of you has stuff going on right now, so I apologize for intruding.
You three are the ones that I speak to as I seek God’s direction. Here is what I am thinking today and would love your feedback.
1. This adventure is partly a lesson in hearing God for myself and doing what the Spirit says. It’s about being led by the Spirit.
2. I am wrestling with “work” and housing right now. My thoughts were to find any job whether it is corporate or not so that I could carve a pathway to ministry, but I do not believe that God said to do that.
3. It has been very cool to see God lead me in the church side of things. I still believe that my ministry work will come out of wherever I land in terms of a local church home. I go to a new place on Sunday called Grace Chapel. It has been totally God to get me there so this is exciting.
4. I feel that a level of fear has been removed. I am growing in faith and confidence.
5. My time with Jack is precious.
Where I am wrestling:
1. I was seeking out a place to live and got close with a christian couple who had a room. It fell apart. I can stay with Jack until the 12th. Then, I have a buddy who just bought a home and still has his old rental. He will let me rent it at 150/week. It is an insane house with two masters, etc. Life wont be so hard there, but it ends Sep 11 at the latest. It came to me. I did not go get it.
2. Speaking of which. I do believe that me trying to manufacture things right now is dangerous territory. I can’t say why, but I think it ties to being led by the Spirit. I need to let God bring me whatever it is whether it be a job, place to live, etc.
3. Because of that, I do not plan on looking for any housing. God can either bring it to me or I am homeless. It is His call.
4. I believe that to be the right move on the job but am not there yet. God said MINISTRY. Why am I looking at secular jobs then? I cannot get ok with that. I have a phone interview with a company on Tuesday and am not sure that that is the right direction. I made that happen. Yesterday, a buddy of mine, who loves the LORD said that he thought I should reach out to old clients and see if I could get some project work. Well, one immediately came to mind. I spoke with him today, and he has need for what I do. I am putting a proposal together to that end. Now, that seems to be more like being led by the Spirit but does not yet resolve my being called to MINISTRY.
I know the typical church track for ministry, and perhaps the LORD will walk me down that path. But, I dont know and dont want to box Him in.
I saw today a video by Lana Vawser. Towards the end, she started talking about a similar event but said she did nothing. She told God that He had to do it and just laid down until Holy Spirit took care of business. Now that to me is being led by the Spirit.
I think I have that down for the home situation. God will take care of me.
But, what does it look like for the job? I am leaning towards just laying the hunt down too. I will put my proposal together for Rob and see where that goes because I “think” it was God. The other gig, I dont know what to do on.
What do you guys think?
Thanks for praying!