I am so tired of not carrying what I want to carry or be where I want to be. There is complete disatisfaction in my spiritual life.
I want the anointing, power ministry, prophetic mantle, etc. “Modern Day John Lake” a dude tells me a few years ago. “more than before” Lana Vawser tells me.
Maybe I spend too much time looking in the rear view mirror, but I know in my heart that I am not walking where I want to be. I just dont know how to get there. LORD, please help.
Jack heads back to Nashville in a couple weeks. He goes back a man starting to brew in confidence. God did a work in him these last months. It is awesome. I just believe that the doors will now open to him because he actually will step through. Thank You, Jesus!
Jen is still having troubles in her eye. God, help!
I am wondering what San Diego means. Two big issues: getting the job offer and how to handle living in Montrose and working there. Do we buy a place? Can I commute? What about Jen?
I really have no intention of selling our place in Montrose. If the LORD says to, we will. Jen and I both committed to that. But, I just dont think that is what He is on. It is something else.
Papa, I ask for:
- Heart to pay me what You want and a heart to receive that.
- Their heart to allow me to commute.
- Money to buy a place there.
- Ability to have Jen with me. A job for her that allows for it.
- Favor with the king.
- Clear understanding on the assignment You have for me.
- Ability to take care of our dogs while we do this.
- Whatever else I am not thinking of that I should be asking You for.
Thanks for working it all out, LORD.