Valentine’s
We ate a V Day dinner yesterday. Nice.
Back on the fast.
The LORD told me no coffee yesterday. Not sure why. Is it just that day? Every day?
God?
I feel that I missed out on life.
I am grateful for my job, but it’s just a job – fulfilling someone else’s dream.
I have this desire in my heart to minister like once before, where I saw the miracles, had crazy prophetic bent and saw demons leave with ease.
Now, it’s all a memory.
I have a nice life. God has been so gracious to me.
But, I want to see the fulfillment of why I was created, and I know that the longing in my heart tells me there is much more.
I find myself easily angered tehse days.
Out of the spirit.
God, ,heal my heart please.
I think of Dr. Kim Maas’ word:
God is laying on me the mantle of the prophet. He trusted me with some but now it’s much, much more.
What does this look liek, LORD?
Surely Your word is true.
Oh God, dont leave me like this. Dont forget me. Dotn be so far away. Even if it’s me, come closer.
We are investitaging Crossroads Victory church here in town.
Tye move in the Spirit.
But, I am reluctant to associate with any church again.
I will get coffee with their pastor.
Lead me, LORD!