When I add it all up, I just dont think that I do a good enough job loving Laura. I have taken offense and judged her.
Now, this is no easy matter. I know that God continues to put the squeeze on me with this Nazirite thing, etc. So, He calls me into a tighter line of holiness. And, He calls me to love. The two are not mutually exclusive.
I need grace to love my wife and see her as He does. I need His love to give to her.
So, I am going to start by just being kind to her. And, I will speak kindly to her. And, I will not judge her. I will give her room to be herself and let her go in terms of surrendering her to the LORD so that He can do whatever needs to be done. If there is a change, He can bring it – not me.
LORD, I am sorry for playing Holy Spirit in Laura, and the others’ lives.
They belong to You.
Help me to just love them day by day.