This is where I am. My dad sends me an email with two passages in it. Here they are. Laura has spoken against me yet again. I am so tired of her saying how she hates being married to me. She grumbles about our circumstances as if I am the one in control. Man, I have been doing my best to find a job and take care of our family. And, this weeks she spoke against me praying for people. Antichrist spirit. Add that to Jordan’s rebellion, and I just want to go away. I am moving to a place of apathy. I just dont care.
Either God shows up and takes care of this, or we explode. I have no more fight in me – not for or against. I asked the LORD to have His way with us.
Exodus 17
Water in the Rock
1Then all the congregation of the sons of Israel journeyed by stages from the wilderness of Sin, according to the command of the LORD, and camped at Rephidim, and there was no water for the people to drink.
2Therefore the people quarreled with Moses and said, “Give us water that we may drink ” And Moses said to them, “Why do you quarrel with me? Why do you test the LORD?”
3But the people thirsted there for water; and they grumbled against Moses and said, “Why, now, have you brought us up from Egypt, to kill us and our children and our livestock with thirst?”
4So Moses cried out to the LORD, saying, “What shall I do to this people? A little more and they will stone me.”
5Then the LORD said to Moses, “Pass before the people and take with you some of the elders of Israel; and take in your hand your staff with which you struck the Nile, and go.
6“Behold, I will stand before you there on the rock at Horeb; and you shall strike the rock, and water will come out of it, that the people may drink.” And Moses did so in the sight of the elders of Israel.
7He named the place Massah and Meribah because of the quarrel of the sons of Israel, and because they tested the LORD, saying, “Is the LORD among us, or not?”
PSALM (not sure which)
Be with me, Lord. Be with me, my Lord.
When I’m in trouble and I don’t know where to go, be with me, Lord.