Laura and I told the kids about the our impending separation. We cried more than they did. But, it seemed to go very well. Bless God.
They both came to me throughout the day wanting to know how much they would get to see me. They are also concerned with where I will live.
In the midst of this, I emailed Blackbaud and told them no. I must stay here. This morning, I get a seed of doubt on that decision. Laura got upset with me for it. She could be right because if I got a job in CO, I dont know whether I would have done the same. That’s selfish ambition. Help me, Father. Fix this mess. So, I made my decision and will go with it. I should have let it play out and prayed through it. This was an immature move on my part. I controlled this. I am sorry, Lord. Forgive me. Where ever You want me to go, I shall go. You must come first – the kids second.
Help me to learn this lesson. Give me the grace to see it all the way through, Father.
In Jesus’ Name,
Amen