Still no peace.
Still great concern that I am a reproach to God.
Father, am I?
Boy, these times are tough. I read a great passage in Streams in the Desert yesterday. Wisdom often relies on rationality. God and faith are often not rational. It was indeed encouraging. he has done it so many times before. Why not now? Just because circumstances are hard, does that mean that I am the author? But, I feel that the people around me all poitn to me as the culprit. If that is so, please tell me, Father. And, do it so that I can hear. Circumcise my ears, Lord.
When the fire gets harder, we start to analyze thnigs a lot more. It makes opportunity for the accuser.
The spirit of despair gets an opening. Lord, I pray against that. Give me Your eeyes to see all of this. Break the junk off of me, Lord.
Glorify Your name. Praise You.
I pray for revelation and breakthrough.