It’s been an amazing month. There has been abundant fruit in all areas of life (except Laura). The kids are doing great and really want to move out here. There has been many divine connections. God has told me to get under cover (find a church). Everything points to permanence. The work is going great, and they seem to want me out here. But, Evan and I talked yesterday, and they dont want to separate me from the kids. I dont know how to take that. Is it up to them to make this decision? Is it God’s will that I be out here? It certainly seems that way. To the best of my ability, I believe it to be the case.
I talked to Laura yesterday, and she is bent on the divorce. She asked me if work was going well and if there were long-range plans. I said that Evan and Nate appear to want me to stay on but are concerned for the kids. That we all were. That discussion ended up with her asking me what I thought. I told her that I thought that I wanted her to move out here and for us to be a family. She then proceeded to tell me that she didnt want to be with a liar. Oh great, so now I am a liar. That Lakeland thing still is coming back, and I told her that fear of man was the issue and that I sinned and that I repented. There is nothing left for me there. But, she is so bound up and seems to be listening to every word the devil throws at her. We need intervention from the LORD.
In this case, what does loving Laura say? What does obeying God say? I dont want to live my life apart from my kids.
LORD, you have to give me wisdom here. Please tell me what You want done.
I keep thinking back to the prophetic word that John R. out in Redding said in being true my dreams since they are close to God’s heart. That’s a big word.
When I see the fact that it was God who brought me out and that there is so much fruit, I struggle to imagine that I am supposed to go back east. Oh boy, do I need wisdom.