It’s funny how one wants to count down the days of fasting. That kind of defeats the whole purpose. God has been wonderful through this. Naturally, what I expected wasnt at all what I got.
But, there has been big breakthrough of what I needed. I have come face to face with my selfishness and pride. I am in process of being cleansed of that. There is much darkness in me that needs to be erradicated.
Laura and I are a mess, but I trust Jesus to hold us together and to heal us.
The kids are increasing in their fighting. Jordan talks ugly and in rebellious fashion. There is a spirit of anger over Laura and her house. I pray that God delivers them – us.
The fast turns to water for these last three days. God told me to do it. I asked Kurt if he wanted to join, and he agreed. I then emailed Nathan if he wanted to join, and he responded right back saying that it had been on his heart too Bless God.
I meet with Gary today. I pray for greater revelation.
Show me how to make it a safe place for Laura’s heart, God.
I also have been really wrestling the comp thing with Kanbay. I have felt like I short changed myself and have been trying to let that go. All good things come from God. He provides for us. I saw that at Xcentric. My natural man is at war with my spirit man over this.
I need your grace to let go of this, Father. Just put me in to do Your work. You are all that matters – not this world or the things of it.
Bless God