Category: Journal ✞
Finishing Well
I am going to finish this fast well. I met with Chris Petereson of Crossroads Victory. Great guy. The AG church has a psirit of religion. I told him that. We will go there for now. Not sure how God wants to use me there.
Challenging
Man, things are challenging. This fast is/was a bomb. I have little intention to fast any longer. When God tells me to, I will.. I fight discouragement on a massive scale. I am asking the LORD whether it’s ok to drink when camping with Jack.
Fruit?
My fast may have produced something in God’s eyes, but it was a disaster in mine. I eat all of the time now. LORD God, I am sorry. I told You I would do something and I failed. Gratitude Trust God is able to get
Disaster
This fast is a disaster. Now I just eat through it. Depressing. My flesh needs crucifixion. God, I am sorry. Please forgive me. And help me. Your are worth a lot more than I give You.
Attack Fast 25/40
I got visited by the punk devil last night. Baby… Laboring through the fast. Was ugly towards the lady at Fed Ex – mask nazi. Not a lot of patience for that. Need to love better. Spoke with Grant on Crossroads Victory church. Feeling that
Dream | Helicopter Gunship
I dreamed that I was at a restaurant eating with my mom. It was an open-air place at night. I looked out and heard then saw helicopter Gunshop’s flying out in front of us. They started firing their machine gun canons. You could hear it
Fast 22/40
I “get” to get up and talk with God each morning. Why do I watch the clock? Why do I concern myself with getting in a sufficient amount of time like a workout? I GET to. Part of it is that when the LORD is
Fast 21/40
Restoration! Praise, YOU GOD! He who began a good work … God brings good out of everything. Today’s small straws is just a confirmation of yesterday’s Dutch Sheets’ message on the very same topic. God is retoring me back to my purpose. Bless the LORD.
Fast 20/40
We ate fried chicken last night. I would say that this fast so far is a D-. Time to turn it around. May the second half be way better than the first. Prophetic for my life. God give me grace. I can do nothing apart
Dream | Distant from God
I think I had a dream last night. Alll I remember is talking to someone about how distant the LORD is from me. In fact, there were two different conversations to that affect. In both instances, they told me that it wasnt God. I remember