I leave for Colorado today to consult with Kelby. I pray that the Spirit will impart His awesome knowledge upon u. I pray for miracles and all kinds of supernatural events. I pray for the opportunity to show the love of Christ to the multitudes. I pray to receive God’s love.
The desert is a hard place. My mind likes tolook at allthe angles. Is God doing this? Is God allowing it? Am I causing it? Is Laura causing it? Did I miss a turn somewhere? Do I need to be trying harder? What does resting in Him look like?
At the end of the day, He is in complete control. Circumstances belong to Him, for those who believe.
I have sinned and disobeyed God during this season. Where ist he grace? Or rather, is the grace in the fact that I continue down the path with a few bumps and bruises and a little dirtier from the wear?
Events:
Failure to drive to CO to pursue EMC in Feb.
Failure to go to jail rather than paying the fine.
Failure to look for the job full throttle starting back on December 19th.
Failure to treat Laura with understanding. 2 Peter
Failure to love Laura.
Failure to turn in the Starbucks application as prompted by the Spirit (on time).
Working at Pike when never told to.
There must be more, but part of this season has been humility. A big part also lies in grace. In order to give grace, you must know what that looks like. You must fail and receive grace to understand. When it reaches your heart, you can then give it back out.
Same with love.
I repent of my disobedience and ask for the grace to simply hear and obey the voice of our Lord Jesus Christ.