Johnny preached a good message last night. It was all about getting God to accelerate His time table like Mary did with the wine. I was thinking all along those lines in terms of faith. And, I had a strong conviction to just put all of my money into the stock market and let God refill my bank account. I know that He would.
However, to do so, I would have to tell Laura. And, she isnt in that same place. So, if I did that, it would only put more division between us. Loving her says that I get that job to pay the bills. I meet with Chuck on Tuesday. Hopefully, he will let me do some p/t work with him cause that’s the best rate that I can get.
God’s going to have to do the rest. This is just so complicated.
What does rest look like now?
Angela Kline came up to me at service last night and asked how Laura and I were doing. She asked if she could pray, and I agreed. It was amazing. Angela was right on about everything she was praying for and warring against. She got it all. And, it was good to hear it cause it took me out of the picture as being the bad guy. Now, I know that would ring nicely in my ear, but there has to be something on her side of the equation, and the devil wants to tell me that it’s all my fault.
Angela got me for being complacent. Yikes! How can I continue to fight when I get rejected every time? I guess Jesus could answer that the best, huh.