I had a good phone interview for a position in Raleigh with yesterday. Today, I am convicted for my ansewr in how I left Xcentric. I have figured out how to take truth and bend it to where it sounds good. The devil does that too. I told her that I always knew it was temporary – which is true. I always believed it to be a p/t assignment before God sent me to CO to plant a church. I just didnt tell that second part nor the part that my heart got bad. So today, I feel a bit convicted for not telling the whole truth. Sin sucks.
Father, forgive me please. Whew, do I need a Savior. We just dont want to trust God for the outcomes.
As I was running yesterday, I had a lot of thoughts on Kurt coming to CO with me. There were pretty clear visions on the trip, etc. This is a bit strange. I emailed him to pray about it.
I seem to ahve a lot of energy around heading out there. I dont want it to be the deceit of my wicked heart. I want it to be of God so I pray that He makes it very clear that this is of Him.
Kelby is done. .For new, anyway. He is wrestling with a lot of stuff. I pray for his breakthrough.
I got a call from Scott Rowe yesterday. He was on a business trip and ran into the devil. It seems as though I prophesied this a few days ago, and it came to pass. So, we prayed against the attack and for God to unfold whatever real reason He had Scott out there. Something is/was up.
Sin is all around us. Even though I dont want to do it, I still do it. Paul was right.
Lord, give me the grace to get through this day in a way that honors You. Help me have integrity and not sue my brains to come up wiht ways to tell partial truth to get a job. I know that You will bring me the job and that my sin only puts space between us. I dont want that. I am sorry. Thank You, Jesus. I need your death once again. I need Your resurrection to bring me back.