Had some wine last night.
I crashed. It was a bad evening.
I woke up this am crying out for mercy. The LORD has been talking to me about drinking and cigars.
Im not sure what is permissable. But, I need a heart of obedience and it feels like I want hte world more than God.
He has to change something in me. My own strength keeps fallign short.
I keep trying. I keep failing.
God, help!
Fear of the LORD!!!
Areas I need to focus on:
- drinking – camping, festive occasions only? kids visiting?
- cigars?
- fasts – honor your vows before God
- let Him wake me up – first love