I met witih Peter Bourke yesterday. We talked about my job hunt and all that stuff. He says that I am distracted and thats possibly how the devil gets me. I told him that I didnt know what I want to do since I have this pastor/seminary thing & the cafe and a job hunt. I dont understand what God wants from me on the pastor/seimary thing. I let the cafe go a while back.
Am I being disobedient by not wallking out in faith on the pastor call? Or, am I just not there in timing? Father, O Lord, please help me. You promise to guide me by Your Spirit in all matters. This is a matter. Help!
My guard is against the practical. Peter used that word a number of times. There is no or little room for God’s glory in the practical and pragmatic. But, my faith can sometimes remove the practical – is that the way it should be?
Lord, I saw how You sold our house, how You helped Laura, now You helped my folks. Father, I really think that its more of timing and that You will deliver me.
Please let me know if this is wrong. God, I dont want to walk away from my dream for fear of anything. I want You to have all the glory from my story. But, if I ams upposed to be doing something else, please tell me. Guide me, Jesus.
Brandon called. he attended a bible study with Marty. I guess a good deal of the local pastors attend, and there is fire. He said that they would get me. This call came after I got home from talking with Peter. “They will get me…”
“Only believe…”
I think that Peter’s counsell is good but not right, maybe. Ha! Lord, help me!
Too many Christians want to keep it bertween the ditches. I do believe that we are to get an abundant life in all areas. I also believe that God is always teaching us something. He is always moulding us into His Son’s image. And, our sin nature rebvels against this. So, we get fire. Christians with no fire are not growing or are growing at a slower rate.
I ams ure that Peter’s meeting was from God. So, perhaps it is time to leave this season, and God is showing me how.
I shall utilize Peter’s strategy and plan of attack. He has a lot of experience and wisdom in this area. I will let God navigate me to where He wants me.
I trust You, Father.
Please help!
I am desparate for You!!!