I got upset with Laura last night. We were talking about the kids staying up and how that could conflict with God’s new time to be waking me up every night. and, it was just felt as though she tends to side with the kids = no matter what.
I was judging her for not wanting more of God. Her 5 minutes is pretty weak. And, she doesnt appreciate my relationship with the LORD. NOW, that is not so good. I have to stop judging. LORD, I am sorry. Again, fill me with Your love for Laura. Fill me. God, take this constant pain of rejection.
I really do feel isolated in my family. Bummer.
Jesus, please take this pain and make me whole.
And, confirm that these middle of the night meetings are of You.