Direction
Spoke with Teri Usiak for a while this am. She really helped me get direction on things and what to pray into. Am I called to Kingdom or the local church? What does it mean? I am in a time of restoration (there is that
Finishing Well
I am going to finish this fast well. I met with Chris Petereson of Crossroads Victory. Great guy. The AG church has a psirit of religion. I told him that. We will go there for now. Not sure how God wants to use me there.
Challenging
Man, things are challenging. This fast is/was a bomb. I have little intention to fast any longer. When God tells me to, I will.. I fight discouragement on a massive scale. I am asking the LORD whether it’s ok to drink when camping with Jack.
Fruit?
My fast may have produced something in God’s eyes, but it was a disaster in mine. I eat all of the time now. LORD God, I am sorry. I told You I would do something and I failed. Gratitude Trust God is able to get
Disaster
This fast is a disaster. Now I just eat through it. Depressing. My flesh needs crucifixion. God, I am sorry. Please forgive me. And help me. Your are worth a lot more than I give You.
Attack Fast 25/40
I got visited by the punk devil last night. Baby… Laboring through the fast. Was ugly towards the lady at Fed Ex – mask nazi. Not a lot of patience for that. Need to love better. Spoke with Grant on Crossroads Victory church. Feeling that
Dream | Helicopter Gunship
I dreamed that I was at a restaurant eating with my mom. It was an open-air place at night. I looked out and heard then saw helicopter Gunshop’s flying out in front of us. They started firing their machine gun canons. You could hear it
Fast 22/40
I “get” to get up and talk with God each morning. Why do I watch the clock? Why do I concern myself with getting in a sufficient amount of time like a workout? I GET to. Part of it is that when the LORD is
Fast 21/40
Restoration! Praise, YOU GOD! He who began a good work … God brings good out of everything. Today’s small straws is just a confirmation of yesterday’s Dutch Sheets’ message on the very same topic. God is retoring me back to my purpose. Bless the LORD.
Fast 20/40
We ate fried chicken last night. I would say that this fast so far is a D-. Time to turn it around. May the second half be way better than the first. Prophetic for my life. God give me grace. I can do nothing apart