Life is more than stressful right now. Monday, we are totally out of money. God will show up. I HAVE to get a job. Like now.
I will. My heart is right. I will take anything. LORD, help.
Been talking with Cathy Hemminger. Wisdom. Here is our dialogue:
Now I see why God has us talking…wow. I read something today. The statement was something like: to find out where you have fear, look where the enemy is attacking. Faith and fear can’t co-exist. What’s the cure for fear? It’s love. The love of the Father. And what does absolute love give? Rest. The rest that comes out from that love.
John, I trust the testimony of your financial past will encourage you now. I see you and Laura kneeling down together in honest and earnest prayer; I see you guys quiet and humble. I trust you and Laura have unity and agreement in your prayers. So elementary, but so huge when the chips are down. Do what you know to do..anything we need to repent about? anyone to forgive? confession to one another if there is any..speaking blessing over one another in the name of Jesus..pleading the blood of Jesus over all the areas of your lives..anointing your house with oil over the doorposts and pray what the Lord gives you as you do so. Again, so elementary..so important.
My love life with the Father, Son and Holy Spirit is changing exponentially with this prayer:
God my Father,
Enlighten what’s dark in me..
Strengthen what’s weak in me..
Mend what’s broken in me..
Bind what’s bruised in me..
Heal what’s sick in me..
Revive whatever peace, love and trust that has died in me.
And thank you.
Great men are generally prepared for great deeds by great trials.
2 Chronicles 20..love it! Yes, praise, yes, thanksgiving…and listening to the Father…and do not fear…and seek…and know the depths of how God loves y-o-u. How special the Lord gave you your blueprint!
9 And He has said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for power is perfected in weakness.” Most gladly, therefore, I will rather boast [c]about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may dwell in me. 10 Therefore I am well content with weaknesses, with [d]insults, with distresses, with persecutions, withdifficulties, for Christ’s sake; for when I am weak, then I am strong.
Graham Cooke:
“The first requirement in any set of circumstances is that you get into the face of God for the sake of love because He is pursuing you or the sake of love. Love is always on the agenda of God. You are the Beloved and you need to act like it! So you get into His face, you receive love from God, and that gives you an anointing to this this situation differently and to become in alignment with His purpose in this particular instance.”
“Spiritual warriors joyfully and humbly count on God to come through, no matter what the situation is that they find themselves in. They have an assurance of God’s heart towards them. They are absolutely positive that the Lord is willing to help them. They are utterly convinced that He is incapable of letting them down. Therefore, in times of warfare and adversity, they have a boldness and the courage to stand firm in God.” (I am still reconciling this to my current understanding. I confess I am seeking for this to be a constant in my life. God has used Graham Cooke in a big way to teach me..that guy GETS and lives in God’s love like no one else I have known or heard of..maybe Mother Theresa knew as much?!)
I read your message twice and read through the Nehemiah Ventures site. The site is like your business site…amazing. You are a master at concise and meaningful wording. The basis of NV is so what God has always intended..so love that this is in your heart and spirit-man. I so totally bear witness with the “no” you heard for Terry funding NV. It is not yet NV’s time. Let God give that wings when it’s time.
John, both times I got the same thing…get a job…period…for a season. That fear has to go; you need time for that. God wants to show you some things through this job…big things in little ways. Enjoy peace and practice rest during this job; the learning isn’t about the work.
Lord says read and study 2 Cor 12:9-10 like it is the first time you’ve read it.
You and Laura are big in my prayers~
The cure for fear…is God’s love…and living in that love. I’m really only now getting it. I spent 39 years asking God about it and for it. Then it took being on the front lines for 7 years. Call me a slow learner. But the way He taught me is my testimony. Glad I didn’t miss it. Right now is my go time. God said I get to set the pace. As my friend John Stein wrote, God is fun!
From me:
Here’s a question for you.
You dont know about Nehemiah Ventures. It was clearly the LORD who put me on this. www.nehemiahventures. I still believe that it might take flight, but it has opened a big door for me to work with Terry Hunter in Eleos, which is also a formative project. This is the massive deal that I have seen the LORD in on several occasions.
It might be that NV led me to Eleos, so I am trying to understand the LORD’s will in this.
Terry approached me a few months ago when he thought that the funding was coming through. He wanted to “bless” us by funding NV. God told me to get a job. I knew that I was to tell Terry no to him funding NV, but that led to me getting a job with him once the funding came.
So, I am a tad unsure of something…. was the LORD telling me to “Get a job” to avoid funding NV? Or, was He just saying to “Get a job – any job”?
We will be 100% out of cash on monday.
When I sought the LORD about what He wanted me to do, He put me on 2 Chronicles 20 and King Jehoshaphat. It was clear that praise and thanksgiving were the keys to God bringing me the next move. He would do the work. I was to rest.
Bill Johnson preached on it about a week or so later, and I knew I heard the LORD correctly.
It has been hard, because I have tried to do some things to help terry get money. I have interviewed with a few folks, where I was a top candidate, and nothing happened. I have even applied to part time teaching gigs.
Now, I am looking at getting a dellievery job or home depot or whatever. Fear has been a big issue. Not knowing what God’s will is has been another.
So, the LORD has Bill preach on 2 Chron 20 again like 2 weeks ago. Ha! That was funny.
I also got the same passage two or so other times. The LORD has been very clear that this passage is for me and is my blueprint.
REST!
Ok, but what am I to do?
It isnt monday, and we have yet to run out of cash in 12 years. But, we have walked up to the doorstep so many times that I am flat tired of it.
Anything come to mind?