Yesterday was hard at C3G. I got a grillin. As it turns out, I see a new level of humility being achieved. It’s hard to tell people that dont understand how you have had so many jobs over the past years. It is clear that only the LORD can bring my next job. I am sure that it has always been that way.
I waffle around on Austin, biz dev vs my own gig, ministry and all of that. I have too many prophetic words zooming around. I think too much. I dont know what to do. After meeting with Bill Blane, I believe that sitting down with Laura is the best next step. I have lots of meetings and need to keep moving forward, but I really dont have a focus. So, we need to get one.
What am I afraid of? Why would God tell me not to be afraid?
I believe that I am in the precious metals business. I am being “gold refined with fire” from Jesus. This is no fun at all. I just want the heat up high and the burn to be short and effective.
Today start a six day water fast. My weight is 178.5. That is not right. I need to get 5 lbs off. I can really feel it, and it takes me out of the spirit.
I am really truing to hear the LORD and listen to what He might want to say through His people. It just seems taht so many thoughts contradict each other. I dont know what to do.